Ok...last year I lost about 58 pounds...I have gained the majority of the weight back! Depressing, I almost cried myself to sleep last night. Not that it was a surprise since none of my clothes fit anymore! So...Rick and I both talked and we have a new challenge! For every 10 pounds I get $10 and when I get under 200 pounds I get a $200 bonus...If it happens before our trip to California, another $100.
I can blame it on kids, on stress, on financial stress, on business, life craziness...but it is up to me and I want to be healthy for me and my family. It is so hard! Some of you understand and some of you don't, but it is really hard and that is all I can say about it. I have trust issues with food because I contantly feel criticized and need affirmation for what I do...when I am not feeling validated or insecure, I turn to food. Blah Blah Blah!!!!
Today's official weigh-in: 250.5
I need to do something too. I'm right there with ya! I've got the same co-dependency with food. I don't know why I do it, but it's my reward for good deeds, stress, because it's Friday, because it's Monday, because I have a hangnail. Go figure. Thanks for sharing. I like your goal. Tell Rick to send some my way too for every 10 pound I lose, okay? Miss you. Hey, when are you going to California? Is it just Northern Cal? Let me know so maybe we could catch up and have our kids play. Yeah!
Posted by: Sara | February 04, 2008 at 09:42 PM
I am so with you! I just started a new plan for motivation 4 weeks ago. I've lost 10 lbs! It is difficult, but I am finding that loosing a few pounds has given me momentum to stick with it.
I have been using YOU as a source of motivation. I saw how when you were waiting for your boys, you really got motivated and wanted to be healty and be happy with the first family photos. Our dossier is off to Poland this week, and I am hoping to stick with my weight loss through our waiting time too!
It is SO hard to find that initial motiviation, but it seems like you've got it in your sights!
Posted by: Jennifer Andrews | February 05, 2008 at 09:54 AM
Hi, Jessi! We haven't talked since you got back from Poland so, first off, CONGRATULATIONS! Hope life as a Mom is everything you wanted it to be. I know having one little boy is a challenge with trucks, cars, trains and dirt. Love it though and would do it again in a heartbeat if we weren't already broke from the first one. I've been reading your blog and finally had to jump in and take the time to comment. I know exactly how you are feeling! I have always been athletic and kept in shape until Mateusz came into my life. Now instead of running at 6:00 a.m. I am getting ready to make hot cereal for the little one who is ready to tear up the place already. We joined the YMCA and they have a child sitting place but Mateusz has already figured out how to get me out of there quicker so my workouts are even shorter. You would think as a physical therapist I could keep myself fit. Anyway, I have been talking about my weight gain with my husband and how I was going to sign up for Nutrisystem. I have procastinated since I really do enjoy the excuses to eat so he signed me up this morning to help me along. So my motivation is coming in the mail in 4 - 10 days all packaged nicely. I love to cook and dinners are important to me so this will be very interesting. So, we can all keep each other in check from time to time. I never thought that I would actually gain weight when we adopted from Poland. It's just like I had Mateusz myself! Keep in touch and pray for Kelly. She's having quite a tough time and wants to come home yesterday. Remember the feeling? :)
Cherie Waring
Posted by: Cherie Waring | February 05, 2008 at 08:15 PM
Your post was so honest and open in dealing with weight loss issues. If you lost all those lbs before you know exactly what you need to do. Will be looking forward to seeing your progress:-)
Posted by: Colon Cleanse Geek | February 05, 2008 at 09:04 PM
i appreciate your honesty here and am on the same road - exactly the same. i am pre-diabetic and finding that i can't lose squat b/c of insulin resistance. sometimes i get angry at God for giving me the gift of cooking & hospitality and reducing me to 1500 cal a day and low carbs. but i suppose the alternative is bleak and i should be using my creative side to come up with fab-o dishes. but i want croissants something fierce.
Posted by: melanie | February 07, 2008 at 03:33 PM
I can certainly relate to everyone who has posted here. I've been doing WW for almost 2 years now. Feb. 16th will be my 2 year mark. Although I've adopted the WW lifestyle I still struggle daily with urges and desires to eat unhealthy. Food is my drug. You don't need heroin to live but you need food or you die. Our society is very much based around food. It's evident, look at the obesity statistics. I had to learn to manage my eating behaviors, triggers and stressors. I had to make a committment to my health. I see my parents, who haven't taken good care of their bodies, and are now having dire health complications due to the neglect. I didn't want that. I made the change and I'll tell anyone if I can change (because I'm so stubborn and set in my ways) anyone can succeed at weight loss. You have to make a long term committment. Please email me if you have questions about weight loss or just need a shoulder. I've been there. I know exactly how you feel. Hang in there.
Posted by: Kristin | February 07, 2008 at 07:49 PM
I'm in the same boat sweetie. Hang in there. You know you can do it...just do it some more. You're beautiful anyway...no worries.
I'm starting on my "lifestyle change" (diet) on Monday and I'm dragging my husband and two little boys down the road of better eating too! lol
Good luck to all of us!
Tina j.
Posted by: Tina J. | February 09, 2008 at 06:23 PM
So many "me too!" comments! And me too! Last year I started a "Weight Loss Challenge" on my blog and so many people said "wow - you're so inspirational that I lost a ton of weight!" Ugh. I didn't lose any. I've started again and hopefully I can stick with the effort.
Congratulations for getting back on track - remember the reasons you were losing weight last year - they're still the same. :)
Posted by: Laura | February 12, 2008 at 11:58 AM
you can do it, girl!!!!
i'm here if u need me!
Posted by: marty gentry | February 12, 2008 at 01:15 PM
It is so hard, no matter what your goal (mine is 25 after three babies, and I'm finding that to be beyond difficult.) I'm cheering for you, Jessi! You have such good stated reasons... you are an inspiration!
Posted by: elizabeth | March 07, 2008 at 12:50 PM
Stumbled across your blog from an adoption link (we recently returned form adoption too), but have been intrigued with your posts on weight loss. What's your plan? Are you doing a particular diet or workout regiment?
Posted by: Leslie | April 05, 2008 at 08:22 PM